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Thursday, April 19, 2012

The Little Things...

I consider myself to be pretty independent.  I don't think I ask for help much and if I do, believe me, I have to swallow quite a lot of pride to do so.  I also think that people can't learn to do for themselves if they rely on others all the time.

However, I have come to realize that unasked for help can be the most appreciated!  When someone does something completely unexpected to help you out, it's gotta be one of the best feelings in the world.  I've often thought of how amazing it would be if I came home from work one day and the house was spotless- dusted, vacuumed, picked up, dishes done, bathroom cleaned, you name it.  Because there's always SOMETHING that needs to be done.  I look at my tub and think, "crud, I need to clean that."  I see dishes start to pile up and think, "crud, I need to do those."  Messes that have to be picked up, leaves needing raked, yard needing mowed... oh, how the list goes on and on.

Well, don't get me wrong, my SO David is one of the most helpful guys I've met.  Yes, he does dishes, he'll clean, etc., but usually I watch him do it, so that's not quite as exciting as coming home to it.  And if I asked him to do something, he'd do it! 

Getting to my point:  in my years of living on my own (and being with my ex-husband) whenever something needed fixed, I usually tried to do it myself if I could.  Now, I wouldn't even attempt to do massive plumbing or fix major car troubles.  But if I can google how to do something and it doesn't seem like rocket science, I'll try.  I've changed flat tires, spark plugs in the lawnmower, fixed toilets, leaky faucets and replaced a couple car batteries.

But yesterday was a first for me and I can't tell you how good it felt to have someone else do something for me because they wanted to.  My car has been having problems starting and the theory was that it needed a new battery.  I got stranded at work on Monday and my car was parked there a couple days.  So yesterday, David (with the help of his dad) went to the town where it was parked and replaced it with a new one!  I didn't have to go along, I didn't have to do anything!  A couple hours later, sweetness, my car was parked in the garage, good as new!

The feeling of knowing something like that got done without me having to lift a finger was equivalent to a week of people cooking dinner for me (not that I know what that feels like since moving out of my parents house, lol)!  I am so appreciative for that "small" thing that I did not have to participate in whatsoever.

And it's the little things like that that truly show how a little helping hand goes a long way.

Monday, April 16, 2012


The author of this post is Darius Boone.

We will be moving to the 'rainy city' in April.  April is a month of rain anyways, so I am thinking it will rain a whole lot when we live in Seattle.  I just went to http://www.cabletelevision.net to make sure we have service as soon as we move in because I am picturing the kids won't be able to just run out the door and play in the backyard like they are used to doing.  Even if it isn't raining, it will probably just have quit raining and I won't want them to go outside and get all wet and muddy.  Maybe I will get over my issue with mud when I am surrounded by it.  When I had my son, everyone told me to get used to dirt because boys love to play in the dirt!  I just can't stand it though.  I take wipes to the park and have him wash his hands an obscene amount!  They will definitely have to be able to sit down and watch a movie while I am unpacking.

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Fingers Crossed?

I feel completely torn about something.

I was asked to teach a class this summer at work and of course I said yes.  At the time, I'm pretty sure I knew that I was pregnant, but my memory is awful, so I don't remember.  Being my third, I know what it's like to juggle responsibilities and a baby.  I also know that within about a week of giving birth I was ready to take on the world!  So, unless for some reason I ended up with a c-section, I don't imagine having to take more than a week off.  My job isn't physically demanding and equates to sitting at home talking for a couple hours.

Now, here comes the ambivalence.  The closer it gets, the more I'm hoping the class gets canceled.  I don't want to leave the baby with a stranger right away (if I have to at all) and I can't rely on family to babysit.  Plus my older kids would have to go to daycare and paying for 3 kids in daycare would pretty much wipe out my entire paycheck!  So, it would make the most sense for me not to teach the class. 

But here's my one reason to teach it: I don't want to look bad to my boss.  I'm afraid if I turn it down or say I can't do it that I will come across as unreliable and it will affect his offering me more classes down the road.  I'm only an adjunct, so there is no real job security for me.  Plus, I know it would put him in a bind finding someone else to teach it.

HOWEVER, he told me that for the class to stay on the schedule there have to be 8 students enrolled.  Right now there are 2 and summer classes start May 30.  So I kinda feel like I'm secretly keeping my fingers crossed that I won't have enough students enrolled.  But then I feel like that's wrong of me.  YOU can keep your fingers crossed for me though... and if you don't tell me, I won't have to feel bad!

What would you do if you were me?

Monday, April 2, 2012

Music Monday: Pearl Jam "Betterman"

Sometimes a song comes to mind that reminds you of exactly how you are feeling at that very moment...