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Wednesday, September 7, 2011

What a Difference a Day Makes!!

Despite the whole bipolar thing, I see myself as a glass full kind of gal.  I totally abhor suicide because people have to realize that life CAN get better, you just have to work at it.  Of course, I know that not every bad thing in life is specifically that person's fault... believe me, I KNOW.  I always say that the bad things that have happened to me in life are because of other people.  That probably sounds like I don't take the blame for anything, believe me I do!  If I don't have money for gas and I don't work, duh, it's my fault I don't have money for gas!  But if I don't have money for gas because Jen Schirm of Iowa City didn't pay me the $150 she owed me for babysitting... well, then I blame Jen Schirm.  (Of course I can be partially to blame for trusting someone who couldn't be trusted.)

So, rewind to yesterday.  Not to get into details, but when we moved into our apartment, the lady that manages the property we moved into said that she wouldn't cash our deposit until close to Sept. 9th because that's when we'd be caught up from moving.  She even talked us into moving sooner than we had planned because she kept insisting the check wouldn't get cashed until the 9th.  Well, guess what.  Yesterday was soooo not the 9th and the check got deducted from my bank account, which immediately ruined my day.  Once again, I suppose I can take blame for trusting someone... am I beginning to see a pattern here?  Wow, I just had an epiphany... bad things happen to me when I trust people.  Aha!  Now I know why I say you can never trust anyone.

Fast forward back to today.  A deposit came in sooner than I had anticipated, which covered the check that was cashed yesterday!  That immediately put me in a much better mood.  And I sat there and realized, you know, I have two awesome kids who are with me 98% of the time, I have a fantastic boyfriend who loves me endlessly, I have friends that occasionally talk to me, I just got a part in a play, which is one of my favorite things to do AND, I love my job!!!  So dang it, I tell myself, I need to start looking more at the positives than the negatives.  Sure, David tells me that all you need is love... well, I don't know that living in a cardboard box with my kids eating rats is really going to make me happy, but I appreciate his sentiment.

So for today, it's a good day and I'm loving life!!!

12 comments:

  1. I feel for you when people stab you in the back for being a good person. I am curious the Jen Schrim you are talking about does she have 2 kids and just got a divorce from her husband in California? If so watch your back because she is a home wrecker also destroying a family.

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  2. That's the one! Feel free to email me if you'd like to commiserate! hamsterkitten@hotmail.com

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  3. Sounds to me that girl is only thinking of herself and doesn't have a care in the world about the other family she is destroying, people like that should be ashamed. I'd hate to have friends like her.

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  4. I've had a few friends that have screwed me when it came to $$$ too. I decided I didn't need ppl like that in my life any longer, I hope for your sake cause you seem like a great person you did the same. Cause if they did something this minor and you allow them back in, the next time will be something much much worse.

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  5. Oh yea- even if she had agreed to give me the money, I would not have stayed her friend! Despite all the red flags about her, I had decided to be her friend before because she had never done anything intentionally wrong to me. But, I ended up seeing what all the other people in her life saw, which is why she finds herself alone... it's a shame.

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  6. Wow sounds like you all live in cities full of backstabbers, or you just don't know how to choose your friends wisely. Glad I don't live in Iowa City or wherever city this blog mentioned cause I'd HATE to ever worry about ppl like this girl you mentioned Jenna,Jennifer whatever it is. But then maybe I wouldn't have to worry if she's as lonely as you say she is.

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  7. Hopefully she has moved on to another person to destroy sounds like she can't even keep her marriage together I feel for her kids have to be brought up by a mother who has no morals on who's family she destroys. Only God can help her in her new adventures. Hopefully the kids dad is still in their lives to show them right from wrong and not to turn out like their mother.....Sad word she had built around her. Sounds like she could be a black widow watch out women with husbands or boyfriends you could be next.....

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  8. man, wish someone had warned me about her BEFORE she threw about 8,000 wrenches into my life... ugh. feel for you having known her myself...

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  9. It's too bad there are people like that in this world.

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  10. Hey here's a warning for you about that Jen girl. She's back in your area so heads up and watch out.

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    1. As far as I have heard is that she got kicked to the curb by that husband she stole in colorado, and now she is charging like craxy on some of his accounts. Her ass should be behind bars right now. Just thought I'd let you know so you had some knd of warning.

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